felt oh so bad just now. especially since the first paper we got back was emath. really sucked. passed la. but very low! c5. what can i say? seriously disappointed in myself. blow by blow. first p1. den the other. another case of expectations exceeding reality. tried not to cry. so i went to e toilet. crying isn`t a sign of weakness. at least you`re expressing ur inner turmoil. n trying to expel it out of the system asap.
den came the chem/bio practical. 18/30. chem sucked la. haha. didn`t write down alot of things n it`s not like i didn`t know it. wtf. another blow. then finally came english. b3. crud. dunno what is f-ing wrong w me. my compo was gd. (at least to my standards) 47/60. but my compre sucked la. 30/50. pulled down everything. now 68.8! just gimme one more mark dude!
i`ll not be so pissed for eng if this is e highest in level. though i doubt. shall ask OH tmr. urgh. see how frikking bad this is. i need reprive. my wake up call. i heard it loud n clear alright. the disaster i`ve created for myself. the vortex that makes it almost impossible to climb out of. but i know i will make it.
judging from e way things been happening. i`d say no more first three months course. fuck all those pple who keep comparing e emath results. fuck those who keep comparing eng. it`s never gd enough. nothing has ever been.
